How hurt is hurt ?? =/

How does it really feel ?? Is it as bad as rubbing salt on a wound ?? Or is it like you're being impaled ?? Well honestly I haven't really went through this but all I could see is people around are truly in pain .. They go really emotional, their world is like upside down, they can't concentrate on what they are suppose to do and so on ............. I am really confused and concerned seeing them facing these problems ..

I'm a by stander just looking from the side, looking at their appearances, looking at their facial expressions, looking at their upside down situation .. I don't feel what they feel, I try to empathize them but still I really just can't understand .. Or maybe I should really go through what they have went through only I can really feel what they feel .. But honestly I sort of went through the same thing but I wonder whether that counts or not cause it's a really complicated relationship .. Well that didn't really go well for me, but still I managed to move on .. *winks*

Well what I was saying is about a break up .. Pretty much everyone out there have went through a break up .. It could be a good break up or it maybe a really bad shaped break up .. Some moved on, some cried over and over about it, some can't forget about it, some just don't care and others have their way to handle their own break ups .. Different people have their own style of handling their break ups ..

So as a person like me (a by stander) would be either really supportive to our friends that are going through a break up, or some my choose to be ignorant .. We couldn't do much as a by stander, what we can do is lend them a shoulder to cry on or give some little advice or so .. And people always say first cut is the deepest, I wonder if it is true or not .. Hmm .. But I love the song First Cut is the Deepest by Rod Steward .. =D ..

I just hope that people out there facing a break up can really move on as soon as possible, try not to let this break up be an obstacle to you .. Cause there are so many people out there waiting for us to get to know them .. Don't be too emotionally attached, don't hide yourself in a box, widen you circle and make more friends .. Cause you'll never know who will be your next girl/boy out there .. =D .. Some may even say maybe god wants you to try out a few times before you get to choose the right one .. You could either agree or disagree with it ..

Just one thing, everything is in our hands, we are the ones to decide what we want, so it's all up to us .. And I always said Believing in yourself that matters .. So cheers alright .. =) ..

Butterflies .. =) ..

Love is like a butterfly .. It goes where it pleases and it pleases where it goes ..

December

Christams and New Year .. Woots ..

NA .. =) ..

Hmm .. Finally I get to watch a movie, it's been awhile since I last watched a movie .. =) .. Went out with Vic to watch Ninja Assassin .. Hmm .. Overall I rate 6/10 .. Movie was okay not too bad not too good .. Or maybe because it's acted by Rain .. Lol .. =) ..

Well okay talking bout today's outing, went out with Vic this afternoon .. Town was pretty jam I wonder why, took me like an hour or more to reach her house .. =/ .. So I decided to head to One Utama to go for an outing, cause I think she doesn't like to hang out in Sunway Pyramid .. *Winks* .. =Þ ..

So it took like another hour or less to reach One Utama, hmms PJ is jam as well .. =/ .. So we're like pretty hungry and we wanted to head to Sushi Zanmai cause it's been awhile since I last ate Zanmai .. *Craving for it for so long* .. Hehe .. But damn, Zanmai was full and the line is pretty long + we're pretty hungry and decided to look for other restaurants .. So I suggested we eat in this chocolate shop in One Utama, was actually walking around to look for it .. and then Vic found it one floor below us .. Lol .. *She's so smart .. xD .. So we had late lunch at Chocolate .. Food's good but I love the dark Belgium Chocolate, slurrp slurrp .. Hehe ..

So we makan n chit chat for quite sometime and decided to watch movie .. She's so busy but she had watch most of the movies that is currently show on air .. Luckily she have not watched Ninja Assassin, so we decided to watch it .. =) .. Went to the new wing GSC but we couldn't get a seat cause it's fully booked, end up she took me to a 'tour' in One Utama .. Lol .. xÞ .. So we passed by old wing's GSC, and I suggested why not we checked whether are there tickets, and yeah luck was by our side and we managed to get good seats at a cheaper price .. Thanks for tips on getting good seats .. *winks* ..

So after movie we head to AC to meet up with Justin, Ho, Min Ray and Lai .. Hmmph, pity her cause she has to sit there and listen to us talking crap there .. Felt bad actually cause I think she was superbly boring and was twitting away I guess .. =/ .. Sorry yeah .. =/ ..

So we chat n chat and everybody ciaoed at 10pm.. =) .. Picked up my poker chips from Justin, thanks a million !!! It's been a long time since I wanted to get poker chips and I finally got it .. Really owe you 1 .. =) .. Next meal is on me alright ?? xÞ .. Later on send Vic back and I head home .. =) .. It's was a really tiring day but it's fun !! xD .. Always felt good and had much fun going out with Vic and the guys .. =) ..

Oh well, I will be heading to Malacca later on .. So will not be around till this Sunday .. I'm heading down there to watch SMM Dota Tournament, yeah it's Malaysia's most prestigious Dota Tournament .. Too bad we didn't participate and again, dreams are shattered year after year due to my noobness I admit .. =) .. Oh well, maybe next year ?? Hmm .. See how it goes .. =) .. Well we will be heading down to support the International Dota teams rather than Malaysian's Dota team .. Hehe .. So yeah .. Till then next post !!! Hehe ..

p/s : Thank you .. =) ..

Existence .. =) ..

Existence .. =) .. Yeah ..

I am sure sometimes people out there would think whether we really exist in people's mind .. When you're done you seem to think that people tend to forget about you, don't care about you and everything .. Somehow or rather the negative side of ourselves makes us things that we don't exist in other people's mind .. Sounds pretty funny but it's true, I know there are times we felt left out, we felt being isolated, we felt being forgotten, we felt like as though we don't exist in this world .. =) ..

Then we always ask ourselves for all the things we have done and yet people don't appreciate and all, screwing this & screwing there .. Just like a small kid whining .. Sounds funny but that's what we all do .. Don't be surprise and don't deny that we don't these stuffs, in fact at times we're worst than the kids out there .. =) .. The shittiest part of all is put a blame on others !! Roflmaololftw !!! This is one of the worst things that people like to do, blame, blame and blame .. Human nature I suppose .. =) ..

Our presence is always felt whether we exist or we don't exist .. At times you may think that, **** man why person Y didn't call me out when person Y went out with a friend of yours but didn't ask you out along .. You'll be banging walls, screaming your lungs out, emo **** the whole fucking day !! Yeah just like kids .. LOL !!! .. But the thing is we never knew what was actually happening, you whine and whine but you wouldn't know why they didn't call you out .. It could be anything from A-Z, but only they themselves know .. Like seriously, why put yourself in a hard position which makes you a small kid which kills your own cells which brings down your morale which spoils your day and the list goes on ................................... =) .. Yeah it's like a chain reaction .. =) ..

So again ask yourself why you want to think what people think about you ?? Isn't it stupid ?? Lol .. For example you went for a date and you kept pressuring yourself and ask whether your dates likes you or not, this and that and make yourself a long ****ing list and put yourself in a position which kills yourself .. Why not worry less, just be normal, be yourself, that's all .. Simple as ABC isn't it ?? =) .. If you're wanted, people will eventually come to you .. =) .. And it's always up to us to say a yes or a no .. =) ..

And when comes to situations with yes or no answers, just be simple .. A yes means a yes and a No means a no .. Don't go say yes but beat around bush which leads to a no or vice versa .. Why make things so complicated ?? =) ..

So please please be happy whether or not people forgot about you, doesn't know your existence, those primary school friends that totally forgot bout you, those who never say hi and ask about you, those friends that you have made but forgot bout you, and everything else .. Just remember that your presence is always felt, you always exist in this world whether or not you're good or bad .. Don't have to bother others if that forgot about you and what you did is always remembered .. So cheers .. =) ..

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Can't eat .. =/ ..

Hey hey .. Visited the dentist today .. The dentist put up some stuff which makes me unable to eat .. Pfft .. >< .. Pretty suffering now cause I can't really chew food stuff .. Hmm !!! .. Feels kinda hard to go out to eat the good food out there .. =/ .. Wonder how to go out for outing ?? =/ ..

Maybe I can take this opportunity to keep fit .. Eat less work out more .. Hehee .. =) .. Suffer abit alos never mind .. =) ..

Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz .. Duno what to update .. Byez .. :P ..